Sadly, the Summer of 2010 is coming to an end. Of course, many people may be glad about this. Normally, by this time of the Summer, I'm ready to get back into the hectic life of school again (hell, this time last summer I was ready to die..I had wanted to go back the minute I stepped out!). However, there's too many memories of this summer that I don't want to let go of. Or, rather, this guy.
Now, I can honestly say that I have liked Tom* since July 2009. Sure, I had gone out with other guys and liked them a lot, too, but everyone knows that I had liked him for the longest time. Actually, I had forgotten that I had first made this blog in October 2009, and I had written a draft. Reading the draft, I realized that I had been talking about the same guy that I like (forget like...I pretty much still love him) now.
Why so long?
It wouldn't have been this long if he hadn't asked me to be his girlfriend this May, after I was the lead role in my school's production of Beauty and the Beast. But he did, and we went out for a fantastic two months, and he broke up with me about a month ago.
After a month, I should be over it...But I'm not. How does a person get over someone they have liked for so long? I know that people get back together, but I don't think that will happen for us. At least, not for awhile.
However, I am entering high school this year, where I will have plenty of more options. Some might say this is a blessing, but I was thinking about it...Do I really want to date someone I don't know? Then I have another question...Isn't dating supposed to be about getting to know a person and seeing if you really like them?
But do I really want a random boy's arms around me? Not really.
This is where my best friend, Mike*, comes in. He hasn't always been my best friend...just recently, actually. I used to like him, but after I dated Tom, I felt we were beyond the point of ever liking eachother again, and would just have to be friends. Sometimes he gives me butterflies, though. There are some moments where I would just die to be with him. He always makes me smile. My friend, Kat*, keeps asking if we're dating yet ("You guys talk every day anyway!").
We really don't talk every day. Actually, I haven't talked to him in nearly three days :(
So this blog is to introduce you to my complicated love life.
So welcome.
Note: * = name has been changed.
